As i was talking what happened in the past, it made me think back to that time.

What exactly happened?

I am, in fact, still pissed over what happened. Why can't you just apologise? Why can't you just admit your mistakes?

If you did, things will never be like what it is today. Things would turn out differently. How differently it'll turn out? I'll never know too. As things would never go back to how it was anymore.

I was thinking.. What if i let it be? What if i just let you held my hands? What if i just let you held me? What if i just let myself fall? What if i just let you... kissed?

What will really happened to us? To me? To meow?

Do i really want to know? Do i need to know?

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I'm unsure. But i know i nearly fell into that pit. But i didn't.

You were the one that held me back.

Thanks darling.. Yes. You are the one. The one force that always pulled me back. I did not fall into that pit as i couldn't picture myself seeing you alone, sad, hurt.. All because of me. I cannot take it. My heart breaks always when i think about it.

However.. I'm always bored without you beside me.. I always wanted you to be beside me doing all the things i wanted, but you weren't able to do so. Maybe if you have a car, would it turn out better?? HAHA! Okok. Better don't say too much. =x

Ya.. He were able to do so. But darling won't able to do so. But i DON'T MIND! XD As i love him so! =) ALWAYS!

I hope time would always stay like always. Like before. I'm still wondering how long we'll last. =D