4 Days


Nice! It's getting nearer and nearer already..! =) Darling is just so cute over the phone. ^^ Can't wait to see him!


Start-off of the day wasn't good for today. =/ Firstly, Baby was late. for 30 mins. I waited for 20 mins. Was angry. He knew it. But i'm still very pissed as it was consectively 2 days in a row. Or rather always we meet, MOST, as in really most of the time he's late. =(


He knows i hate lateness, and he's always doing it no matter how many times i'm pissed at him for doing that. And which boyfriend in the world would keep letting his girlfriend wait for him each time?!?! Though not everytime but almost!! Fkin shit. HIAZ!!


He kept apologising. But what's the use if you apologise and didn't change for the better each time??? After awhile, he gave up and he started getting pissed as well. == WTHH?!?!? Asked him what's wrong. "Nothing."


Reached Eastlink for dinner. He brought terayaki chicken chop rice. Turns out to be fried chicken chop with terayaki sauce. Once i saw it, i exchanged my plate of non-heaty food to him since he hasn't fully recover from his sickness. He keep insisting he wants back his while i insist on him eating mine. In the end, i got him eating my food instead.


But guess what? He was eating very unhappily or rather "bu shuang". At the start, i pretend to continue eating my own. However, seeing him eating so unhappily, i unwillingly changed back the food. Then he started getting a bit frustrated, asking me what is it i want?


At that point of time, i really really felt so unloved. I care for him, i love him, that's why i exchanged my food for his even though i'm heaty myself. But he didn't even appreciate my efforts and instead showed me his attitude.


I felt so hurt that i cried silently. Tears just flowed uncontrollably. That's when he starts to feel guilty making me cry and tried to comfort me. I nearly said out this," Let's have a time-out." == omg la.. =( This can't work out at all. What to do? Someone please tell me...


I don't know why i just can't say that out. However, i can accept it if he's the one who initiated it. WEIRD LA!


We were kinda okay after that. Went arcade, sent him to bus-stop and i headed down to school. Went to Michelle's house after that for project and head home. Had dinner at 8+ and here i am now.


I seriously think the matter between me and baby is getting more and more out of hand.. Needs a solution.. Like now. =/ ARGHHH~~~!!!!


p.s. have i done wrong? =/

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