7 Days


YES~ Exactly 1 week! FINALLY! Can't wait. I miss miss miss him so so so much much much. Everyday all i can do is to play the arcade games that remind me of him.. Do the things that remind me of him... Sing the songs that remind me of him and talk about the things that remind me of him... =/ There's so many many things i want to do with him when he's back!!!


Hiaz... Darling ah.. Really ah... One by one, the bees just come to him. == Even when he's in Wallaby. Yes. Wallaby. Girls still can confess to him when he's in Australia. He's soon to broke my record. I should quickly find more guys to keep up with my record. =p JUST KDDING!!!


Went out to do my project updates today. Kor kor came over and find me and pei-ed me. We looked through various dance choreographies.. And told each other we would definitely find time to learn how to dance properly. =) Can't wait.


I really hope this week can pass quickly. ^^


p.s. hopes baby and darling quickly recover... =( shit this dry cough that i'm having.. ==

Labels: ..., =), misses

♥ ♥ ♥that girl called jan♥ ♥ ♥ 7:12 PM

8 Days


Yeah... 8 more days=1 more week!! ^^ This week is gonna be the best week!! There's Nick's birthday celebration over at his house on thus friday! Saturday is gonna meet up with RE1301 group mates for projest finalisation then night time is gonna be study time till i meet DARLING!!! WAOH! Just love weekends! =))



Oh.. I jsut got to know of something.. Got another one coming into my way. =/ I hope i don't hurt this one this time. Or else i'm really gonna be a stupid heartbreaker.. =(



But there's other 2 that's still unconfirmed. I just hope that they aren't though.



Just brought my grandparents to Subway. XD They like the bread! HAHHA! My grandma was like asking me if the drinks can be refilled. Actually, it wasn't allowed. But i just went ahead with it. LOL! Nicky was there as well. Told him about all the stuffs. He was like... -shakeshead- =p


Anyway, upcoming party night. 13 November. YES LA!

Labels: ..., =), cute, misses, party~

♥ ♥ ♥that girl called jan♥ ♥ ♥ 11:28 AM

10 Days


In 30 more minutes time, it'll be 9 DAYS! YEAH!!! =) And Darling will be back from his MOST HIONG outfield tomorrow. Will be able to hear his voice tomorrow!! ^^


Today is quite an... eventful day.. == Went to watch The Last Exorcism with Ben Ben just now after dinner. FKING SCARY!! OMG! This is the first ever horror movie that made me screamed in the theatre. Freaking hell..


Once i close my eyes now, i can picture the girl's scary face in front of me. =/ OMGGGGGG! NOOOO~!!!


Oh. Anyway, i went to meet Darling today. Turns out to be a disappointment to me. HIAZ... What to do? =/

Labels: ..., =)

♥ ♥ ♥that girl called jan♥ ♥ ♥ 11:29 PM

11/10 Days


Look at the time. 1.10am. I know it's late. But i've just got to write this. =/


Just finished more than half of what's left with the albums. Thank god.


What did i do today? School in the morning. Office as coolie and rushed down back to Tampines to meet baby. Was feeling terribly guilty of letting him wait for a whole 2 hours when he's sick even. Fuck it! Stupid office. HIAZ! I'm so so Sorry. I promise i'll compensate him. So in return, i'll wait for him at his house downstairs at 8am tomorrow. I don't care even if he says no.


So we met up and walked to Tampines post office to do submission. Along the way, there's a talent searcher approach us. Giving us the company card and asking us to give him our details. He said his company is looking for talents and models. Hence, this stupid thing. Oh! And baby bought me uncle's bubble tea!! ^^


Then, i pei-ed baby to wait for his bus. there's lyk 6-7 bus 27 went past us but not even one 15. == Finally there's one, but not long after, there came another. Stupid SBS. After which, i headed home.


Well.. Went for a run, dinner, start on the album tingy. Thought everything was well with the day coming to an end, i quarrelled with Baby. Hiaz.. Over the same thing before... Over Darling.


WTF la! He say he cannot take it having his girl calling another guy darling while calling him baby. == Gene is not just any guy! He's my cousin! And every of my favourite cousin, i call them darling! SO WHY NOT?! Just because he's 19 and is a guy, i cant call him Darling?! Didn't want to quarrel with him as he's sick.


I was stupid enough to be worried for him when i saw how sickly he was today. Seems like he still strong enough to be able to get worked up because of this stupid little thing.


I'm really considering of giving both of us some cooling off period.. I mean this cant work out. Should i?

Labels: ..., fk

♥ ♥ ♥that girl called jan♥ ♥ ♥ 1:09 AM

RIP


My friend, BHBS, grandma passed away. =/ He's... Hiaz... I hope he's fine.. Please do bless him.

Labels: pray

♥ ♥ ♥that girl called jan♥ ♥ ♥ 9:16 PM

12 Days


Argh~ How can i forget to update my blog yesterday?!!?!? Suppose to! =(( Hiaz.. Nvm.. =/


Alrights.. Let's come to what i did today. Standard! Must write. Because Darling want to know. Hmm.. Maybe i should write what i did yesterday first! Yes! Here goes~


School from morning 9am to 6pm. Home at 7++pm. Had dinner. On lappy. Sleep. -the end- XD Simple and easy peasy.


Today, went to clementi early to interview DTF candidates cos the HR doesn't trust my manager's taste. XD But luckily, the 2 candidates are not bad. ^^ So proceed to bring them to Bishan DTF for the HR interview.


Of course, i've got school! So went to school after interviewing them at clementi. When school finish, then i took a train down to Bishan! Now i realised, going to Bishan should take down to city hall then change to red line is faster. Take from jurong east is like... BUAH! Freaking far and long!! ==


After which, train back to Tampines. Met up with Ben Ben then head to arcade. =) Really got to thank him for pei-ing me to play arcade all the time. =p He's actually a pro wor. 14 wins.. BASKETBALL! Then, HOME!


Oh ya! And Darling called me 5 times. I missed all 5 calls. Freaking guilty. =/ ARGHHH! But Darling knew that it was because i'm in the arcade. HAHAHHA!


So here i am.. Waiting for Darling's call.. Should be anytime soon.. OH OH! And Darling did call me at ard 3pm today! Luckily, my lecture ended early today. It was all so coincidental. Heex... Like he knew i was going to finish school at that time.


Baby is sick again today. Suppose to send me to school in the morning. But told me his dad bringing him to the doctor.. So.. =/ Ya... Didnt met. Recently, i've been constantly reminding him about all the things he should do. Like sending me to school/pei-ing me back home, blah blah blah.. Then he would start asking me what time my school starts/end tomorrow.. HIAZ!


IMYYYYY~

Labels: =), misses

♥ ♥ ♥that girl called jan♥ ♥ ♥ 7:40 PM

Lalala~

Labels: cute

♥ ♥ ♥that girl called jan♥ ♥ ♥ 9:26 PM

14 Days


YES! 2 weeks! Exactly! Tahan! =))


Hiaz... I was happy originally. As usual.. But was over different matters.. Today was because of my anklet that me and Darling had. The thread was out of order. =( Don't know why. SO DAMN SAD!


Was worried that it's a sign that something bad would happen to him hence i texted him and tried calling him. He didnt on his hp but i know he would return the call to me. So.. I waited. And... HE DID! But for awhile only.. Despite so.. I do understand why la.. Overseas calls are expensive. TTM. Luckily, he's fine. =)


Anyway, about what i did today. Went to work 9-12pm. Ben wanted to meet me. So went to Kovan MRT to look for... Him first. Which him you would ask? That him. That guy. That 1 guy i feel so guilty towards to. He had some souvenirs to pass to me so went by to collect. He look.. MORE CUI.. Sad.. =( Less 1 good-looking guy in the world. XD


After that, we took bus down to TM for ARCADE! And thanks to Ben, i bought back my own car and trained it back to tip-top condition! ^^ Heex...


Next, went home, brought Darling Sky to swim and back for dinner. Here i am, back to normal, stoning here. Bored. =/ ARGHHH!

Labels: =), fk, misses, pray

♥ ♥ ♥that girl called jan♥ ♥ ♥ 8:09 PM

15 Days

Yes. 15 more days to go.. =/ Feel freaking bad to not being able to pick up Darling's calls while i'm out with Weijie.

I know it's rude to keep talking on the phone with someone else while you are out with another friend. That's why i've got no choice but to ask Darling to call me back later. After which, he did call back but i didn't pick up the call as i didnt feel any vibrations... At all.

I feel so guilty.. ARGHHH... Promise that i'll devote all my possible time to Darling once he's back in SG. We are gonna like have so much fun together!! ^^

Talked to Darling more than ever today since he was in Wallaby. I felt that familiar warmth that i was feeling before he went to Aust. =))

We both were emo. But we were emo over different matters. =/ He was home-sick. I guess? XD While i was... Yeah.. You know.. The previous post...

And to add on to my emo-ness.. I lost my fkin car card!! MY PRECIOUS CAR CARD!! That i spend almost $10+-20 on it!! CRAP! Was meant to be a surprise for Darling when he's back.. Now i've got to re-train.. =((

Labels: ..., =), fk, misses

♥ ♥ ♥that girl called jan♥ ♥ ♥ 11:17 PM

16 Days


I was very VERY happy. BUT~! I was stupid enough to look at the photos i don't wanna (shouldn't??) see, and here i am.. Feeling very down again. =/ Even though it's because i was missing him...


It's a past (for him) already. But looking at how happy he was in the past.. I don't know what's right and wrong anymore.


I mean.. Yeah.. I know what's best for him. However, making him do all these.. Is he happy? Really really happy?


I don't know. Maybe he would be better off with having her by his side still.. I think given him a choice, he would choose to have her replacing the position i'm holding in his heart now. Right now. (Of course, that's provided that she would change.)


-What's with my stupid playlist... Playing emo songs for the past 5 mins while i'm writing this post.. Thanks a lot. Fk it.-


Maybe he just doesn't fit? Maybe he just meant to be there and not here.. Not here with me. =/


I don't know if he did really reveal everything that's within him to me.. Sometimes he knows that i just hate to hear him mentioning things concerning her and might hestitate in revealing the matters to me... But we had a promise.. Oh well~ I duno.


Ayway, if one meant to keep something deep down within his heart, he would never tell anyone. For him, maybe not even me.............


Given another choice again, if you were still with her: break up or just lose me.


What i've done?


Oh! And i just realised there's a girl that look exactly like her in my school, right within my faculty. And we are in the same tutorial class for some modules. FKIN NICE.


p.s. It just sucks to be typing and feeling hurt at the same time... stupid me. (i'm having second thoughts of showing him my blog..) I miss you.

Labels: ..., =), fk, gd or bad?, misses

♥ ♥ ♥that girl called jan♥ ♥ ♥ 11:09 PM

17 Days


I shall let Darling look at my blog when he's back. XD


I really need to thank Ben today for accompanying me. =) Without him, i think today would be another boring day for me. I've been a nanny for more than half a day. He came over to Xiao Jiu's new temporary house to wait for me. Bought Koi and chocolates for me. (meant to be a bet for surprise) We cab-bed down to Bugis and played arcade. Dinner was Wanton mee.. After that, back to aracade to spend the supposedly remaining coins and then to Illuma for L4D2. My virgin LAN playing. Sucks like duno what crap. XD After which, Illuma aracde, Bugis MRT to wait for Nicky and trained back home.


Well... Above answers the question of what i did today. That, Darling would definitely ask me if he were in SG. It seems like everywhere i go, whatever do and eat reminds me of Darling.. ==


OH OH! Pause for a moment!! Darling called me today~! I was super super HAPPY! OMG! And we talked longer than usual. Though i was a bit guilty as i was playing LAN and talking to him at the same time, making me sound as if my heart is not there with him, talking to him. =((


I'm sorry.... But oh well.. And the worst part was that I'm with Ben.. == Which makes him even more.. Worried? Oh my tian! I don't wanna tell him originally as i don't want him to worry at Wallaby... =/ But But... I did stop playing LAN after that to talk to him.


AIYA! I believe that he'll be safe just for me! ^^ I was SO SO HAPPY when i heard his voice. That's when i realised how much i miss him. He sounds good.


AND AND!! I found out something that really made my day!! Darling's block leave is from 24Dec-2Jan!! HAHAHHA! HAHAHHA! HAHAHA! Which means.......~~~ -drum rolling- It didnt clash with my stupid ShenZhen trip!!


Today is a SUPER HAPPY day after all!! Just love days like this.. ^^ Keeps me smiling the rest of the week.

Labels: =), cute, misses

♥ ♥ ♥that girl called jan♥ ♥ ♥ 11:31 PM

18 Days


There's still 18 days.. This is tortourous... OMG! Somebody just pack me up in a luggage and send me straight to Wallaby. ==


Oh! And please pack my baby inside the luggage as well. We come in a pair. ^^


Whatever it is, i'm missing darling like mad.. This is Shit. =/


Least Baby is getting better. =))

Labels: ..., =), misses

♥ ♥ ♥that girl called jan♥ ♥ ♥ 3:56 PM

19 Days


Bb is sick today... =/ Hope he's getting better. Think is due to the bad weather, HAZE, in SG that is causing all of our discomfort, including my throat.. ==


Hiaz.. Darling is having a hard time at Wallaby. =( He still have 2 out-fields and 3 live firings to go. ARGH!! Seriously, just FK SAF!


How i wish i was there.. The moon and stars you are looking at must be really really beautiful. Each and every day seemed to pass so so damn slow.. ~.~ It's so OMG. Everyday's like the same boring routine. FML.

Labels: ..., fk, misses

♥ ♥ ♥that girl called jan♥ ♥ ♥ 6:44 PM

20 days


2dae is a lloooooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnggggggggggggg day. =/


But still.. i'm happy that baby came to get me after my school. though really not at my school.. at outram mrt.. but still.. =)) least we spent some time together which we really didnt for a long long time..


20 more days to darling coming back home.. My neck is getting loooooonnnggg from waiting. =(( Hope he's fine over there..

Labels: =), misses

♥ ♥ ♥that girl called jan♥ ♥ ♥ 7:55 PM

21 Days

Labels: fk, misses

♥ ♥ ♥that girl called jan♥ ♥ ♥ 7:04 PM

The unspeakable truth

Labels: =)

♥ ♥ ♥that girl called jan♥ ♥ ♥ 7:02 PM