16 Days


I was very VERY happy. BUT~! I was stupid enough to look at the photos i don't wanna (shouldn't??) see, and here i am.. Feeling very down again. =/ Even though it's because i was missing him...


It's a past (for him) already. But looking at how happy he was in the past.. I don't know what's right and wrong anymore.


I mean.. Yeah.. I know what's best for him. However, making him do all these.. Is he happy? Really really happy?


I don't know. Maybe he would be better off with having her by his side still.. I think given him a choice, he would choose to have her replacing the position i'm holding in his heart now. Right now. (Of course, that's provided that she would change.)


-What's with my stupid playlist... Playing emo songs for the past 5 mins while i'm writing this post.. Thanks a lot. Fk it.-


Maybe he just doesn't fit? Maybe he just meant to be there and not here.. Not here with me. =/


I don't know if he did really reveal everything that's within him to me.. Sometimes he knows that i just hate to hear him mentioning things concerning her and might hestitate in revealing the matters to me... But we had a promise.. Oh well~ I duno.


Ayway, if one meant to keep something deep down within his heart, he would never tell anyone. For him, maybe not even me.............


Given another choice again, if you were still with her: break up or just lose me.


What i've done?


Oh! And i just realised there's a girl that look exactly like her in my school, right within my faculty. And we are in the same tutorial class for some modules. FKIN NICE.


p.s. It just sucks to be typing and feeling hurt at the same time... stupid me. (i'm having second thoughts of showing him my blog..) I miss you.

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